Tag: Transformation

  • Christ broke me this morning.

    When I began sharing my thoughts on my study of Matthew’s Gospel, framed as a conversation, I figured there would be days like this. I wanted to share with you what I studied today because it is important. Not as part of the story, but as. The author who is being transformed. After this morning’s devotions I was left praying for repentance and crying out to God for my unsaved family members and friends.

    I was reading Matthew 9:35-38. This passage begins to expound on Jesus’ ministry and his expansion beyond Galilee into the surrounding cities and villages. He traveled through large cities, centers of power and wealth, and small villages, centers of the obscure and the poor. The significance for me this AM was that the gospel is for all socioeconomic classes. Matthew records that he taught in the synagogues in all of these places.

    Verse 36 says the he saw the crowds, implying that even in the centers of power and wealth that there were crowds that gathered to hear him. The word “saw” implies a spiritual awareness of their condition. Matthew describes that he saw people were “harassed and helpless.” When we think of the harassed and the helpless we thing of poor people and their physical condition. The troubles that they are experiencing.

    If only they could get food or had a place to stay. While these things are important, I believe Matthew was describing their spiritual condition and by implication their spiritual leaders. We need to look at Matthew’s description and implication and contrast that with today’s Christianity. Matthew says that he grieved, felt compassion, for them. He felt genuine grief for their spiritual condition.

    Satan and his demons have successfully perverted our society today.Most of us are not called to be preachers. The requirements for being preachers is laid out in his letters to Timothy. But, we are called. There is a sequence for being called and there is a definition: A calling is God’s divine summoning of people to Himself, to His ways, and to His service. This calls for a basic understanding of that this universal calling of people precedes specialized callings, like preaching and prophecy. The proof of this is in 2 Corinthians 5:17-20, where we are universally called to be “ambassadors of Christ and stewards of the gospel.”

    First we are called to salvation – to have a personal relationship with Him. Personal worship of Him. Personal prayer with Him. Next we are called to see – learn to view the world through Kingdom eyes and be aware of the spiritually lost, neglected and marginalized. And finally, we are called to serve – we are to engage in prayer, giving, personal witness, acts of mercy, and reconciliation.

    In verses 37 and 38 of Matthew 9, Jesus likens the time we live in as “harvest.” There is a shortage of laborers. In the first century, there were only 13 people on the team. Jesus and his 12 disciples weren’t enough to carry the gospel to the millions of people that inhabited the earth at that time. Today there are roughly two billion professed Christians on the earth and we are still experiencing a labor shortage in the harvest fields.

    Where is our harvest field? Our first harvest field is in our own home. All of us have family members that are unsaved and have fallen away. We should be praying daily for God to use us in our home, or if we aren’t there to intervene on our behalf for our family and friends that aren’t saved.

    As Christians, we should be using our platforms to further the spreading of the Gospel. Even if we are selling a product. Surrender that platform to Christ. Pray earnestly (with grief, fire, and passion) for the Kingdom Harvest. If we aren’t doing this, we need to repent and then move forward in His perfect will.

  • For the last six weeks, I have been going through a transition—true transformation, not condemnation. I didn’t realize until recently that for forty years I tried to fix my own spiritual problems. I filled the holes in my soul by myself and basically told God, “You don’t help anyway. I’ve got this.”

    I didn’t “hit bottom.” I hit a wall I built myself. One Saturday morning, when I planned to “try a devotion,” God met me. He reminded me that Christ died for me, and I was cheapening that salvation by trying to act as my own savior.

    Romans 8:1 says, “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” I had read that verse for years. I never believed it applied to me.

    Six Weeks of Renewing My Faith

    Since that morning, I’ve been consistent with daily devotionals. As I’ve grown in my walk with Jesus, spiritual attacks increased. They came during prayer, during worship, and even in moments of peace. The distractions were constant—unworthiness, old temptations, anger, anxiety, and all kinds of shiny things that tried to pull me off course.

    But during a small group session, something hit me that changed everything: God knew me before He laid the foundations of the earth (Ephesians 1). He knew my identity before sin ever touched me. He knew the man I was intended to be. I had made a choice to follow Him forty years ago, but I ignored that identity for decades.

    Transformation, Not Condemnation: What God Revealed

    These last six weeks have been rejuvenating. But they exposed something deep inside me. I realized I kept begging God for forgiveness for sins I had already confessed. Satan used my past failures to distract me from my identity in Christ.

    Here’s what God showed me in this season of Christian transformation:

    • My feelings of unworthiness were not humility—they were an attack.
      They were a tactic to keep me from walking in my identity. My unworthiness wasn’t a flaw. It was proof God finally had room to work.
    • Temptation still hits me daily—and that’s good.
      Dead men don’t fight. Resisting temptation is not weakness. It’s evidence that I’m alive in Christ. It’s proof of spiritual transformation.
    • The enemy doesn’t waste ammo on the men he already owns.
      If I’m under fire, it’s because I switched sides.
    • This isn’t unworthiness. It’s sanctification.
      It’s ongoing. It’s messy. And it’s real.

    The Freedom of “No Condemnation”

    It’s still hard for me to accept that there is “now therefore no condemnation.” I dragged my past behind me for decades. Dropping those chains feels foreign—almost alien. But this is the truth of freedom in Christ.

    Right now, I’m learning to meditate on Scripture and on the forgiveness God already gave me. I’m training my soul. I’m letting the Word discipline my emotions. And after years of spiritual silence, I’m learning again how to hear the Holy Spirit.

    A Son, Not a Slave

    I’m adopted into the family of God. That means I am a son of the King. But I still sometimes act like a slave. This walk is new to me. I’m finally living the faith I pretended to live for decades.

    Jesus didn’t prove His kingship by domination. He proved it through service—washing His disciples’ feet, healing the broken, lifting the forgotten. He serves even now from the Throne of Grace, until He returns in glory.

    Final Thoughts: Transformation, Not Condemnation

    • I am forgiven, and there is no condemnation.
    • My worthiness is inherited, not earned.
    • I’m learning to walk as a son, not a slave.

    If you’re carrying shame God already buried, lay it down.
    Christ already picked it up.