For the last six weeks, I have been going through a transition—true transformation, not condemnation. I didn’t realize until recently that for forty years I tried to fix my own spiritual problems. I filled the holes in my soul by myself and basically told God, “You don’t help anyway. I’ve got this.”
I didn’t “hit bottom.” I hit a wall I built myself. One Saturday morning, when I planned to “try a devotion,” God met me. He reminded me that Christ died for me, and I was cheapening that salvation by trying to act as my own savior.
Romans 8:1 says, “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” I had read that verse for years. I never believed it applied to me.
Six Weeks of Renewing My Faith
Since that morning, I’ve been consistent with daily devotionals. As I’ve grown in my walk with Jesus, spiritual attacks increased. They came during prayer, during worship, and even in moments of peace. The distractions were constant—unworthiness, old temptations, anger, anxiety, and all kinds of shiny things that tried to pull me off course.
But during a small group session, something hit me that changed everything: God knew me before He laid the foundations of the earth (Ephesians 1). He knew my identity before sin ever touched me. He knew the man I was intended to be. I had made a choice to follow Him forty years ago, but I ignored that identity for decades.
Transformation, Not Condemnation: What God Revealed
These last six weeks have been rejuvenating. But they exposed something deep inside me. I realized I kept begging God for forgiveness for sins I had already confessed. Satan used my past failures to distract me from my identity in Christ.
Here’s what God showed me in this season of Christian transformation:
- My feelings of unworthiness were not humility—they were an attack.
They were a tactic to keep me from walking in my identity. My unworthiness wasn’t a flaw. It was proof God finally had room to work. - Temptation still hits me daily—and that’s good.
Dead men don’t fight. Resisting temptation is not weakness. It’s evidence that I’m alive in Christ. It’s proof of spiritual transformation. - The enemy doesn’t waste ammo on the men he already owns.
If I’m under fire, it’s because I switched sides. - This isn’t unworthiness. It’s sanctification.
It’s ongoing. It’s messy. And it’s real.
The Freedom of “No Condemnation”
It’s still hard for me to accept that there is “now therefore no condemnation.” I dragged my past behind me for decades. Dropping those chains feels foreign—almost alien. But this is the truth of freedom in Christ.
Right now, I’m learning to meditate on Scripture and on the forgiveness God already gave me. I’m training my soul. I’m letting the Word discipline my emotions. And after years of spiritual silence, I’m learning again how to hear the Holy Spirit.
A Son, Not a Slave
I’m adopted into the family of God. That means I am a son of the King. But I still sometimes act like a slave. This walk is new to me. I’m finally living the faith I pretended to live for decades.
Jesus didn’t prove His kingship by domination. He proved it through service—washing His disciples’ feet, healing the broken, lifting the forgotten. He serves even now from the Throne of Grace, until He returns in glory.
Final Thoughts: Transformation, Not Condemnation
- I am forgiven, and there is no condemnation.
- My worthiness is inherited, not earned.
- I’m learning to walk as a son, not a slave.
If you’re carrying shame God already buried, lay it down.
Christ already picked it up.